Chapter One Love Sick

I Date Her, To Hold His Hand
Chapter One
Love Sick

I see him every day, he looks the other way.  I want to tell him I love him.  I know he don't love me back.  I listen by the boys bathroom to see who he likes, he always like some girl.  Its different every day.  So even if I did date him it would only be for a day.  It don't matter because that day is all I want.
If he ever just looks my way I think I would melt.  He so cute, I want to kiss him just once.  Maybe one day.  He comes out of the bathroom with his friends, there talking about basketball now, oh how I wish I could follow them.  Just to be with him, I would sell my soul.  Why is it I was cursed to be a boy.  If I was a girl he would like me and we could go out, just for a day.  He would have his hands around my waist and kiss me.  I dream of that night after night, so I don't get much sleep.  I watch him from far away so he cant see me.  He would just call me a faggot if he saw me watching him.  So I hide myself to avoid name calling.  I love him so much, but to him I am nothing.  He don't know me, but to me he is every thing.  I wished many nights for him to be mine.  Stars, why wont they grant my wish.  So many flowers lost there
Petals just to end at loves me not.  For him I would give my life, for me he would do nothing.  Could I be love sick?  Or maybe he is just a phase.  If he is I want to get over him soon.  School is over and we get on the bus.  He sits across from me.  I want to look at his face, but I am scared that once I look I wont stop.  Can somebody please help me?  Cant anybody her my cries?  I get off the bus before him.  Lucky.  I am free, till I go to bed.  that's if I do.  I lay in bed for hours thinking only of him, I didn't even do my homework.  If only he loved me this wouldn't be happing to me.  All he has to do is kiss me once, he don't even have to mean it.  that's it, I'll get him to kiss me.  I walk up to him, I had decided last night that I will just ask him.  My heart is beating fast, I think it might explode.  He looks at me, who are you he asked.  Of coarse he don't know me.  I feel my face heat up.  " I want you to kiss me."  he looks at my face, which is red.  Then he breaks my heart.  He starts laughing.  He yells as loud as he can " This faggot wants me to kiss him."  everybody in the boys bathroom starts laughing and pointing.  I cant take it anymore I run out, tears running down my eyes.  What do I do now, what do I do?